I Feel Like a Failure

Do you feel like you're never good enough? In this unscripted, spontaneous episode, I dive deep into my current struggle with perfectionism in writing and the surprising parallels to eating disorder recovery. Recorded with no planning or outline, this raw exploration reveals how the fear of failure follows us beyond recovery into creative pursuits.

What you'll hear:

• Why I'm experiencing intense anxiety and fight-or-flight responses when sitting down to write
• How perfectionism isn't actually about being perfect, but about confirming our belief that we're failures
• The connection between setting constantly higher standards in ED behaviors and creative work
• Why my most resonant podcast episode was the unplanned one recorded at midnight
• How Kierkegaard's concept of "the dizziness of freedom" explains why rigid rules feel safer than possibilities
• The revelation that recovery doesn't mean life becomes magically perfect – we just face new forms of fear

This episode marks the beginning of a potential new series sharing unfiltered thoughts and reflections. I'd love to hear if this format resonates with you!

💗 Join my newsletter to get first access to "How to Get Out of Quasi Recovery"
🌈 Learn more about the Autistically ED-Free Academy
📚 Read my books about autism and eating disorders
🌐 Contact me via my website