What If I Can't Handle Being Healthy?

"What if I can't handle being healthy?"

This question haunted me for years, echoing through my thoughts each time I contemplated recovery. My eating disorder was never about the food, the weight, or even the physical aspects of health – it was about what being "well" would mean. Because being healthy meant being responsible.

In this episode, we explore how eating disorders can function as a shield against adulthood, particularly for neurodivergent individuals navigating a neurotypical world. Through examining the complex relationship between autism and anorexia, you'll discover why recovery isn't just about changing behaviors – it's about redefining freedom on your own terms.

Key Topics:

• The paradox of being "mature for your age" while fearing adulthood
• How eating disorders can become a response to undiagnosed autism
• Why the fear of being healthy is often about avoiding responsibility
• The unique challenges neurodivergent people face in eating disorder recovery
• Finding freedom through appropriate boundaries rather than restrictions

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